Sunday, May 10, 2009

This is the light of the mind/ Cold and planetary.

Does having a Sylvia Plath quote as my title make me cool? I hope so.

I know I haven't posted in ages. In fact, I haven't written in ages. Period. Not here, not in my journal, not on random napkins, nowhere! I feel bad, so i'll do a minddump. This is one of my favorite things to do. You should try it.

Things on my mind

-I wish the text area on my blog was bigger, the skinny column of text makes my posts look too long. Experts say that if a blog post looks too long, less people will read it. Bullet marks remedy this. So there!

-Star Trek is an awesome movie. Seriously. The guy who played Captain Kirk looks just like Emmanuel Moire, and Spock has NEVER been so adorable. Love it. Love it to pieces. Best quote? "Are you out of your vulcan mind?!" Haha, it's funny because it sounds like he says something other than vulcan. Isn't it great when people explain jokes to you? There were actually lots of funny little tidbits, which did well balancing all the action and drama.

-I feel bad that I am so bad at playing the guitar. Dalin is teaching me but I am always embarrassed to practice when he is around and I am too clumsy to really practice on my own so...I'm not getting a lot of practice. My guitar is so cute and lovely and I really want to play well but it is so hard. My hands are small and I can't reach the chords sometimes's just so frustrating. That I feel like I am disappointing Dalin just makes it worse. He even bought me a blues driver. I want to live up to him!

-I am starting to draw. I got myself a sketchbook and Dalin's stepmom gave me an art kit that she never used (ever! Not even once! Brand spanking new, friends.) It is a lot of fun and I have been practicing so much that I can already see improvement. It's very encouraging. If I ever manage to get a scanner I will be sure to post up my drawings. Just writing about it makes me happy. I am excited to show my dad, who draws as well, my pictures when Dalin and I go visit him at the end of this month.

-After the first week or so, quitting smoking isn't so  much difficult as it is annoying. I think it has been twelve days now. I just don't know what to do with myself when I am fidgety but don't want to commit the time for sewing or knitting or drawing or whatever else. Still though, I am feeling tons better. I am doing crunches whenever the TV is on, during commercials (Great plan!) and I'm saving up for some running shoes, as I don't actually own a pair of shoes that isn't high-heeled. Ha...

-I am very conflicted in the fiction writing department. I have this really tempting idea for a new novel, but I haven't finished editing my last one. Actually, and this is hard to admit, I have barely even started editing my last one. I really wanna start writing again but I know that if I start the new idea, Displacement will lurk in the back of my mind and poke my eyeballs until I feel so guilty that I just stop writing altogether.

-Guitar, drawing, sewing, knitting, crocheting, writing, beating video games, keeping the apartment clean, quitting smoking, exercising....Do I have too many things going on?

-Last but definitely not least, I happen to know that a diamond ring had been ordered and is on it's way. It was supposed to be a secret, but Dalin didn't know my ring-size and had to ask. It's a 5 by the way. It was the smallest size that the ring could be made in. I told you my hands were small, I wasn't just making excuses about the guitar thing.


Hmm...that felt good.


  1. <3 <3
    it's fun to hear what's on your mind!
    i know how you feel about that guitar thing... i'm in the marching band so in theory i would play, right? but anytime i practice i get so frustrated and distraught 'cause i'm ridiculously bad, and asking someone for help on the most basic things makes me feel really ashamed... ew. anyways, it's really cool that you're getting into drawing, i hope you get a scanner soon!
    and idea: next time you get fidgety you could always blog! or start editing your last novel... lol
    but hey, don't let the dread of not having edited it keep you from writing new things! writing is exciting and you shouldn't feel guilty for what you do or don't do. =)
    i doubt any of this helped but i was just so excited to hear what was going on in your life!

  2. Yay! Joany commented on my blog!

    This makes me very happy.

    I miss you, homeskillet!

  3. Congrats on still not smoking! That is such an amazing accomplishment. You should be incredibly proud of yourself for making it this far. It won't be long now before you start thinking of yourself as a non-smoker. Good on ya!

    As for the guitar thing ... follow your passion. If you truly have a passion for something, nobody will be able to keep you from practicing it. If you don't, nobody can force it on you. (And I just have a funny feeling that Dalin won't love you any less.)

    And don't feel any pressure about the editing. You'll get it when it's ready for you to get to it. Go ahead & start - even finish, if that be the case - your next novel. The other one will still be there, and you just might be able to edit it better once you've been away from it for awhile.

  4. And well worth the wait! Your blogs are missed!! Mind-dump anytime, it makes a great read. ;-D